on a mission again...

Hi! I'm still a sugarholic! But boy, do I know so much more about nutrition since the last time I posted. Surprisingly enough, I know I can control my sugar cravings as am convinced that I can over come it.

I've had a few ups and downs in the past few months. I started to follow the Dukan diet, and honestly, that really does work to take the sugar cravings away. I lost about 5 + kilos in a few short weeks. Then we went on a little vacation to Melbourne

and I "treated" myself to anything I couldn't have on the diet. Mainly sugars and bad carbs... since then I have tried to start the diet on and off without truly committing to it as I did when I first embarked on this new challenge.

well, I'm back at it again... This time, I've armed myself with the help of Marksdailyapple.com (I have his book on primal living and his cook book) Dr. Cate Shanaha's Deep nutrition boon (I also joined the Spakpeople group for her program called T.R.I.M>) and I have Gary Gaube's book Why we get fat (which I'm still reading). There two things that all these diets (even the great Dr. Atkins, which I am also following) have in common: 1) greatly minimizing carbs 2) eliminating sugar. Two of the most difficult things to do, especially when there is an addiction involved. But I know I can do it and I Must do it.

Ok. Let's see how this goes and I pray this time is the last time I fall so low into the vicious cycle.

Day 1: realization

Ok. I continue to struggle with commitment to better health. I know everything there is to know about my addiction, I know how to fix it, but yet, somehow, I sabotage my progress every single day. Everyday, I have one too many cookies!

I know I must do it for me, if not for my kids so that their mom is around a little longer. I know, I must do this, but I cannot make myself commit to just one day. I can barely make it through one meal without killing myself with food!

I believe there is a link between all the freaking sugar I am eating and Candida! I will test this theory by eliminating the sugar, and adding nutritious things like, blackstrap molasses, apple cider vinegar with the mother to try and balance my body. That also means, no alcohol.

I also need to commit to writing in the blog everyday and telling the world my issues.

why do I need to do this? I think the more people who know what I am going through the better as I seem to not value my own opinion. This is a way for me to hold myself accountable.

I need help and I need to stop this madness.

My plan for tomorrow is:

No sugar, No coffee, no Milk, no bread, no pasta

Start with hot water and lemon

take multivitimine, acidofilus,fish oil

Apple cider vinegar and BS Molasses

Oats for breakkie with a banana, perhaps an egg.

Mid morning snack:

fruit

Lunch:

Brown rice, beans and other protein

Mid arvo snack: yogurt, a little salad

Dinner: protein and veggies

late snack: protein shake (no milk)

Let's see what happens..

I need to report at the end of the day on my success.

Lord help me get through this once and for all.